Featured ~ New Creation(s)
A Poet's Heart…
A poet’s heart
A steady rhythm sometimes hard to find
Creating tapestries out of memories
They often find their voice in rhyme
A poet’s heart
Exposing fracture lines
From experiences lived and observed
Created over time
A poet’s heart
Has the quality of a sponge
Absorbing feelings big and small
Into their emotions they fearlessly plunge
A poet’s heart
Whether expressing love or pain
When a poet’s heart is open
They trust their writing is not in vain
A poet’s heart
Carries the weight of burdens bared
With clarity and understanding
The heaviness is to remind how much they cared
A poet’s heart
A uniquely divine thing
Engulfed in emotions small and large
It’s the emotions that keep it beating
By: T.J. Christoff ©
12/20/2025
1440 hrs.
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Nightmares…
Nightmares
Night after night
Coming in waves
I watch myself fight
Nightmares
No matter the season
I’m in a battle for my life
No rhyme nor reason
Nightmares
All through the night
Starting and stopping
It’s a constant fight or flight
Nightmares
Running for cover
Only to discover
I’ve been hit by bullets over and over
Nightmares
My back’s to a wall
There’s a firing of guns
I watch myself fall
Nightmares
The scenes keep changing
Danger all around
It just keeps rearranging
Nightmares
Knives being thrown
At the masked and unknown
I must survive on my own
Nightmares
Why do they appear
Where do they come from
Do they serve to remind or create fear
By: T.J. Christoff ©
12/16/2025
0941 hrs.
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I Get the Sense…
I get the sense you’re having some struggles there
I get the sense that for me, you’re starting to accept that you deeply care
I get the sense there is much you want to share
I get the sense that you don’t know, if you should ever dare
I get the sense you have never experienced something like this before
I get the sense there’s something about me, that you just might adore
I get the sense you’re not sure what to do
I get the sense you have a desire, to have me near to you
I get the sense you think of me, as often as I think of you
I get the sense everything we feel is real and true
I get the sense everything we are experiencing has a reason
I get the sense it will all be revealed, in just the right season
I get the sense you feel a certain comfort, whenever you feel me near
I get the sense that comfort came, when you realized you weren’t in fear
I get the sense you enjoy sharing your space with my energy
I get the sense when you feel me, you also feel a bit more free
I get the sense you too have wondered how long this will last
I get the sense sometimes you feel, the time is passing much too fast
I get the sense you desire to express your feelings and thoughts
I get the sense just thinking about it, leaves your emotions in knots
I get the sense you’re reading this, and wondering if it’s all true
I get the sense you’re wondering, how I’ve come to know you the way I do
I get the sense in many ways, this fills your heart cup
I get the sense it brings you joy, and maybe even lifts you up
By: T.J. Christoff ©
For: You
12/15/2025
0918 hrs.
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They're Like Love Letters…
They’re meant to be like love letters
These poems I write to you
Baring my heart and soul
As my deepest emotions shine through
They’re meant to be like love letters
Most every poem that emerges
Expressing feelings I hold inside
Exposing hidden urges
They’re meant to be like love letters
The kind of love letters I’d love to share
Opening up my heart to you
Leaving you to never wonder how much I care
They’re meant to be like love letters
These poems that I pen
Using words to show my love for you
Time and time again
They’re meant to be like love letters
To let you know you stay on my mind
When writing these poems to you
The words are seldom hard to find
They’re meant to be like love letters
And although rhymes usually come with ease
Sometimes all I have are images
Leaving me at a loss for words and longing to please
By: T.J. Christoff ©
For: You
12/11/2025
1533 hrs.
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There's Nothing That's Not to Want…
I’m just sitting here
Thinking of you
Asking myself questions
The way I usually do
Like how do you like your coffee
What’s your favorite song
Are you kind or hard on yourself
When you feel you’ve gotten something wrong
What’s your favorite color
What’s your favorite snack
If the cashier overpaid you a nickel
Would you keep it or take it back
What’s your favorite hobby
Or do you have any at all
Do you laugh at yourself or cry
If you should happen to take a fall
Do you prefer more intimate moments
Or would you rather be on the go
Are you comfortable in large social gatherings
Or is it difficult meeting people you don’t know
I ask myself these questions about you
Because I’m curious and want to know
Is it popcorn, a pretzel, or some other treat
You’d prefer to enjoy while watching a show
While these questions may seem silly
The answers would tell me a lot
Giving more insight into who you are
And who you truly are not
No matter what your answers are
Or what your answers are not
I’ve found that when it comes to you
There’s nothing that’s not to want
By: T.J. Christoff ©
For: You
12/11/2025
1052 hrs.
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https://www.yourtango.com/2020331823/longing-quotes-about-wanting-what-you-cant-have
In Silent Whispers…
In silent whispers
I’ve heard you
While watching the setting Sun
In silent whispers
I’ve noticed you
As my day had just begun
In silent whispers
I’ve embraced you
In the warmth of a summer breeze
In silent whispers
I’ve held you in my mind
You’ve come to me with ease
In silent whispers
I’ve noticed you
As your aura slowly faded away
In silent whispers
I’ve held out hope
I’d always notice you again, another day
In silent whispers
I’ve touched you
I’ve touched you with my soul
As your soul received mine
I’ve felt you too
I’ve felt you, in the silent whispers of my soul
By: T.J. Christoff ©
For: You
12/9/2025
1414 hrs.
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Life, Just Moments…
Life
A culmination of moments
Just moments
Life
Days passing quickly
In hurried moments
Life
Dragging by slowly
In lazy moments
Life
Filling us with joy
In special moments
Life
Moving us to cry
In sorrowful moments
Life
Bringing about wonder
In curious moments
Life
Exploding in laughter
In funny moments
Life
Edgy and restless
In anxious moments
Life
Exploring and learning
In adventurous moments
Life
Passionate and affectionate
In loving moments
Life
Building gentle confidence
In trusting moments
Life
Soulful reflections
Life, just moments
By: T.J. Christoff ©
12/8/2025
1724 hrs.
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https://soundcloud.com/rafael-briones-167789463/just-live-the-moment
Do You Know…
Do you know
I can feel you too
Do you know
I adore the things you do
Do you know
I see you in my dreams
Do you know
I fantasize about you and special little things
Do you know
I long to feel your kiss
Do you know
How easy you are to miss
Do you know
This isn’t easy for me
Do you know
It’s not exactly the way I’d prefer it to be
Do you know
I want to hold your hands in mine
Do you know
I want to enjoy you, while losing all track of time
Do you know
For another, I’ve never felt this way
Do you know
When looking at you, sometimes I don’t know what to say
Do you know
You fill my heart with joy
Do you know
You’re the only one with whom, I’d share my favorite toy
Do you know
I love your thoughtful manner
Do you know
I look forward to our playful little banter
Do you know
Your aura reaches me
Do you know
In my mind’s eye, it’s you that I see
Do you know
To me, Angel numbers frequently appear
Do you know
They reassure me, you are always near
Do you know
I often daydream about you
Do you know
It’s one of my favorite things to do
Do you know
There have been nights I’ve lost sleep for thinking of you
Do you know
I’ve wondered if you’ve lost sleep, thinking of me too
Do you know
I desire to hold you close
Do you know
It’s you I love the most
Do you know
I find you equally fascinating
Do you know
I’d spend lifetimes for you, patiently waiting
By: T.J. Christoff ©
For: You
12/1/2025
1140 hrs.
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Even if I Tried…
Even if I tried
With every ounce of my being
I’m not sure I could express
The depth of my love for you
Even if I tried
For days on end
I’m not sure I could find the right words
To truly depict how much you move me
Even if I tried
From dusk till dawn
I’m not sure I could paint a vivid enough picture
To capture the rare beauty I behold in you
Even if I tried
Writing poem after poem
I’m not sure the words would flow succinctly enough
To validate the connection my soul feels with yours
Even if I tried
To search for joy
I’m not sure I could experience the natural joy
I experience simply from being in your presence
Even if I tried
Though I never would
I’m not even sure I could
Ever let go of the love my soul holds for yours
Even if I tried…
By: T.J. Christoff ©
For: You
11/30/2025
1751 hrs.
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The Lady who Struggles…
There’s a lady who struggles
But in what ways could that be
It’s a book waiting to be written
Yet you shared little else with me
With just one detail provided
She likes to drink coffee
My creative mind’s now on a journey
Curious about all this story could be
This lady is very magical
She knows lots of tricks
But her wand was recently broken
Now she must locate just the right stick
The process, it is daunting
For there are wand sticks everywhere
But to find the perfect one
Requires a search of much care
There are wands made of soft timber
And many are made from hardwood
The core is filled with phoenix feathers
They can be used for evil or good
They can quickly send a toy
That’s left lying just anywhere
Flying like a torpedo missile
Zinging through the air
And without her coffee onboard
Oh, you’d better watch out
Though rare for this lady
She might just give a shout
But without her wand in hand
If there’s a toy in her way
Rather than picking it up
She might just kick it away
And without her favorite coffee
At the ends reach of her arm
She might struggle a bit
Just to give a darn
But please don’t let this fool you
For this lady is a gem
And whether struggling or not
In love with this lady, I am
By: T.J. Christoff ©
For You
11/27/2025
1327 hrs.
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For Thinking of You…
Minutes turn to hours
But there’s nothing I can do
There’s no way I’ll be sleeping
For thinking of you
Thoughts from our conversation
Loop round and round in my mind
As I recall things that you said
Like priceless gems awaiting their find
I search carefully my memory
For the little things that we’d shared
To acknowledge our connection
And express that we care
There was a closeness that I’d felt
While talking with you
As I reflect on it now
Something about it seemed new
While I loved what you told me
And the gentle nature of your voice
What I hold most sacred is that you shared
Out of comfort of your own choice
This could go on all night long
These thoughts of you just keep coming through
No, I don’t think I’ll be sleeping tonight
For thinking of you
By: T.J. Christoff ©
For: You
11/27/2025
0241 hrs.
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Featured ~ New Creation(s)
If Only…
If only
If only I could tell you
If only I could utter the words out loud
If only
If only you could see my thoughts
If only you could envision my thoughts of you
If only
If only I could touch you
If only I could embrace you the way I want to
If only
If only you could feel my desire
If only you could know my desire for you
If only
If only I could read your mind
If only I could know the story you are writing
If only
If only we could talk openly
If only we could share openly with vulnerability
If only
If only time weren’t measured in moments
If only there were more moments in this lifetime
If only
If only I knew what to do
Maybe then, “if only” wouldn’t feel so lonely
By: T.J. Christoff ©
For: You
11/24/2025
1001 hrs.
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Don't Be A Martyr…
Don’t be a martyr
That’s what I was told
As an Airman First Class
At just twenty-some years old
I had moved that dead dog
Off to the side of the road
After he had been killed
His weight had become my load
Sitting in this cemetery
Recalling the number of times since then
I’ve passed or moved a dead body
How many thousands have there been
I’ve just passed several more
The road their final resting place
Wishing I could have stopped to move them
Showing them a little grace
The ache that fills my soul
Each and every time
I see their broken bodies lying there
I find it so hard to define
Don’t be a martyr
But shouldn’t someone be
If just once to symolize the value of the lost
And provide them some dignity
By: T.J. Christoff ©
11/22/2025
1211 hrs.
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Maybe It’s Time…
Maybe it’s time
To face the truth
That you have no desire for me
Maybe it’s time
To face the truth
That you don’t see things the way that I see
Maybe it’s time
To accept what is
Let go of what I’d like them to be
Maybe it’s time
To accept what is
Forgo all hope for possibility
Maybe it’s time
To walk away
From a connection I initially resisted
Maybe it’s time
To walk away
From a connection that possibly never truly existed
Maybe it’s time
To face the truth
Perhaps what I’ve believed was all in my mind
Maybe it’s time
To face the truth
Realizing the truth I may never find
By: T.J. Christoff ©
For: You
11/19/2025
1202 hrs.
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You Sing to My Soul…
In my soul I hear you sing to me
In the words you’ve never spoke
I’m moved by joy and filled with love
From the laughter born as you joke
My heart beats strong in time with yours
As I look into your eyes
Though skipping one or two sometimes
Marking rhythm with the pace of your sighs
In my soul I’ve heard you sing to me
Time and time again
The songs you sing float on gentle breezes
Shifting my emotions with the wind
In the softness of your voice I hear
The wisdom of a sage
Developed over many lifetimes
Belying your current physical age
I find I stop and pause at times
Wondering if you know
The moments I’ve felt you sing to me
If I’ve unintentionally let it show
There’ve been times I’ve longed to tell you
As I’ve felt your singing begin
But my fear is that if I let you know
That’s when the singing will meet it’s end
By: T.J. Christoff ©
For: You
11/18/2025
1012 hrs.
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When You Don't Fit In…
When you don’t fit in
You can feel alone in a crowd
Time often passes slowly
You tend to observe much
When you don’t fit in
There may exist a silent aching in your soul
You may feel hollow at times
A quietness might fill you up inside
When you don’t fit in
There may be a questioning as to “why”
You may doubt your worth
You may reassess your value
When you don’t fit in
Others may not understand your passions
You are often moved by what others dismiss
You may be more reflective than others are
When you don’t fit in
You may struggle to find your purpose in life
You might consider giving up
It might be tempting to believe others’ opinions of you
When you don’t fit in
In time you will become resilient
You will learn to be okay on your own
You will find beauty in your own uniqueness
By: T.J. Christoff ©
For: All who feel they don’t fit in
11/13/2025
1211 hrs.
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My Diary…
My diary
If you read it what would you find
What thoughts would you discover
Have filled my mind
My diary
Tells of heartbreak
Hopes and dreams
Of loves that wouldn’t wait
My diary
It lives and breathes
Painful emotions
It strives to relieve
My diary
Invisible pages inside of me
The scribe my heart
Attempting to set my soul free
My diary
Awakening me at night
Deep feelings stirring
Prompting me to write
My diary
Moving and intense
Honoring my pain through written words
Perhaps an attempt at recompense
My diary
Possesses some joyful memories too
Their desire if they had one
Would be for the hurt to be able to undo
My diary
Uniquely mine
Each page a journey of its own
Holding lessons for only me to find
By: T.J. Christoff ©
11/12/2025
1347 hrs.
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In My Dreams…
I see you in my dreams
You’re right there
Just a breath away
Standing ever near
I see you in my dreams
We move together with ease
Our desires are quite simply
For each other a wish to please
I see you in my dreams
The moments play out surreal
For it is your emotions
I am intensely able to feel
I see you in my dreams
I hear your every word unspoken
For our ability to speak aloud
Most often seems to be broken
I see you in my dreams
You dance light upon a cloud
The sound of sweet music
Playing never too loud
I see you in my dreams
Your beauty ever bright
Like a star your soul shines
And for a moment all feels right
I see you in my dreams
I hold you ever close
Whispering in your ear sweet nothings
Like how much I love you the most
I see you in my dreams
If only I could live there
At least then I’d know
I would always have you near
I see you in my dreams…
By: T.J. Christoff ©
For: You
11/10/2025
0844 hrs.
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"I'm So In Love With You!"...
“I’m so in love with you!”
I think to myself as I look into your eyes
Wondering if you can feel it too
If you’ve yet come to realize
“I’m so in love with you!”
These feelings I try hard to hide
Knowing it should not be spoken of
Yet in you I’m aching to confide
“I’m so in love with you!”
I think as thoughts of you enter my mind
Slowly I reach across my bed
Knowing there you I may never find
“I’m so in love with you!”
I think so often both day and night
Wondering if there is a positive solution
And if so, how do I get it right
“I’m so in love with you!”
I hear myself whisper out loud
Being without you at times
Feels like being alone and lost in a crowd
“I’m so in love with you!”
But these six words are just the start
For words alone could never fully express
The love I hold for you within my soul and heart
By: T.J. Christoff ©
For: You
11/9/2025
2153 hrs.
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https://music.apple.com/dk/music-video/if-im-being-honest-lyric-video/1503783144
But, If I'm Being Honest...
I long for you
I try not to
But, if I’m being honest
I long for you so much it hurts
I think of you
I try not to
But, if I’m being honest
I don’t want to stop
I enjoy you
I try not to
But, if I’m being honest
It’s so easy to do
I miss you
I try not to
But, if I’m being honest
I think you miss me too
I want you
I struggle to not tell you
But, if I’m being honest
I feel in my soul you already know
I love you
I’ve told myself not to
But, if I’m being honest
I could never stop loving you
By: T.J. Christoff ©
For: You
11/8/2025
1149 hrs.
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https://music.apple.com/dk/music-video/if-im-being-honest-lyric-video/1503783144
Relinquish...
Relinquish the hold
You have over me
Dare let me go
Set my soul free
Relinquish your grip
That binds me tight
Holding my thoughts
Both day and at night
Relinquish our past
The lives we have shared
Overcoming great obstacles
Together our souls have dared
Relinquish all hope
For love between us to grow
Abandon all desires
For seeds of passion to be sewn
Relinquish me now
I fear you’ve made your decision
Celebrate and rejoice
Get back to the business of living
Relinquish a future
In this lifetime and beyond
Where with our past soul connections
We were destined to carry on
Relinquish any desires
Perhaps you may have for me
If we can’t be together
Then allow your soul to be free
Relinquish any signs
You might have been hoping to see
I can’t promise I’ll do the same
For I know our connections were always meant to be
By: T.J. Christoff ©
For: You
11/6/2025
0834 hrs.
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Tattoo My Pain...
Tattoo my pain right there
Right there on my crown chakra
That I might experience a spiritual connection
That it may bring awareness, wisdom and healing
Tattoo my pain right there
Right there on my thirdeye chakra
That I might know intuition, inner wisdom and perception
That I may be guided with insight that transcends logic
Tattoo my pain right there
Right there on my throat chakra
That I might feel comfortable in my self-expression
That I may always speak my personal truths openly and honestly without fear or reservation
Tattoo my pain right there
Right there on my heart chakra
That I might have the ability to love passionately and deeply with heart wide open
That I may always connect with others intentionally and meaningfully
Tattoo my pain right there
Right there on my solar plexus chakra
That I might know the ability to love completely, with vulnerability
That I may always be able to connect with others truthfully and empathically
Tattoo my pain right there
Right there on my sacral plexus chakra
That I might govern over my sexuality, creative expression, and emotions
That I may be friendly, passionate, and joyful
Tattoo my pain right there
Right there on my root chakra
That I might feel grounded, safe and at home in my body
That I may always feel connected to Mother Earth
Yes! Tattoo my pain…
By: T.J. Christoff ©
11/3/2025
2342 hrs.
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When You’re not Looking…
When you’re not looking
I find I’m looking at you
Wondering which thoughts you’re thinking
Which one’s your mind is tuned into
Is it tuned into mine
Is it tuned into theirs
Have you shared your thoughts with me
Or are you focused on your own cares
When you’re not looking at me
I hold my glance toward you
Just a little bit longer
While I feel I still have a chance to
I try to memorize
The contours of your shape
The soft full lines of your lips and eyes
The deceptively delicate curves of your shoulders and face
Whenever I catch you stirring
I avert my eyes if I can
To keep my desires for you hidden
For now must remain my plan
When you’re not looking at me
And I’m gazing longingly at you
For a moment time for me stands still
As my soul feels free and pleasantly renewed
By: T.J. Christoff ©
For: You
11/3/2025
2232 hrs.
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Featured ~ New Creation(s)
How Did We Get Here...
How did we get here
To this time we’re now living
The chaos that’s unfolding
The cruelty’s unrelenting
How did we abandon
Our nation’s good values
Bowing down to the bullies
Suddenly sounds like old news
How did we get here
To a time of great harm
The damage being done
Is causing increasing alarm
How’d we end up being
So quickly disgraced as a nation
Independence Day no longer holds
The same hope for celebration
How did we get here
As a people we’re failing
Our governing body
Seems to all be derailing
How do we recover
Do we even stand a chance
Is the party nigh over
Are we nearing the last dance
By: T.J. Christoff ©
10/31/2025
1837 hrs.
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Yo-Yo...
I’m feeling like a yo-yo
I’m given a tug
Then I’m let go
I’m like a favorite yo-yo
I’m feeling like a yo-yo
At the end of a string with a tiny slip knot
Wrapped around a finger so I won’t be forgot
I’m like a favorite yo-yo
I’m feeling like a yo-yo
Entertaining with tricks
Trying to bring humor to the mix
I’m like a favorite yo-yo
I’m feeling like a yo-yo
Some days I’m enjoyed
But somehow I feel I’m still viewed as a toy
I’m like a favorite yo-yo
I’m feeling like a yo-yo
Not an ordinary one
I provide a different kind of fun
I’m like a favorite yo-yo
I’m feeling like a yo-yo
And like all yo-yo’s eventually do
I can feel when my day has come
And like a once favorite yo-yo, I’m no longer the one
By: T.J Christoff ©
10/31/2025
0934 hrs.
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Wiggle Room...
Wiggle room
It’s what I’m needing
To give myself more time
Wiggle room
I have to have it
If I’m to treat myself more kind
Wiggle room
I don’t need a lot
Just a little bit will do
Wiggle room
I just need a little
A little wiggle to help see me through
Wiggle room
Would help me breathe
While locating patience that’s hard to find
Wiggle room
Would help keep me calm
When I feel I’m losing my mind
Wiggle room
Would give me hope
When at times I feel I’ve none
Wiggle room
Would replace my pain
With moments that are more fun
By: T.J. Christoff ©
10/29/2025
1501 hrs.
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SOBERR…
Stop
Give yourself a minute
This is life that you’re living
It’s not a race needing winning
Observe
The tone that you’re using
The emotions you’re infusing
The thoughts and words you are choosing
Breathe
Deep breaths, slow and steady
There’s no need to be petty
You don’t have to speak until you’re ready
Evaluate
The energy you’re creating
Would a response rather than a reaction
Result from waiting
Realize
Everything happens for a reason
This isn’t forever
It’s just a season
Respond
With the message you’re sending
Know that to have a happy ending
Upon you is what it’s truly depending
By: T.J. Christoff ©
10/28/2025
0714 hrs.
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It’s Back to the Basics…
It’s back to the basics
From which I’ve been departin’
The hurt in my heart
Boy it’s been a smartin’
It’s not been a choice
There’ve been other reasons
But I’m tired of this weather
It’s time for changin’ the seasons
It’s back to the basics
It’s what I know how to do best
When my emotions start a flarin’
It’s time to give my tongue a rest
It might mean walkin’ away
I know how to do that well too
Gettin’ back to the basics
Means being intentional when I choose
There may still be issues
Things that need workin’ out
But if things are to start improvin’
First I must set aside all my doubts
It’s back to the basics
Gettin’ myself in check is my reason
Even if it means doin’ it alone
This is now my season
By: T.J. Christoff ©
10/27/2025
2107 hrs.
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If I Were to Lose My Mind…
If I were to lose my mind
I wonder where it would go
I wonder if it would be painful
I wonder if I would know
If I were to lose my mind
I wonder how long it would take
Would I figure out where it went
The journey that it would make
If I were to lose my mind
Would I miss it once it was gone
Would I take time out to look for it
Would I notice something was wrong
If I were to lose my mind
Would it pour out of both my ears
Making a splash as it hit the ground
Would I fight to hold back my tears
If I were to lose my mind
Would my memories be gone too
Would it wipe away the good and bad
Would it take my memories of you
If I were to lose my mind
What left would there possibly be
If I were to lose my mind
How could I not also lose me
By: T.J. Christoff ©
10/27/2025
1448 hrs.
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What Happened to Me...
What happened to me
In such a short time
The person I was
I can scarcely more find
Bursts of anger
From out of nowhere
Gives the impression to others
I simply don’t care
Rage in an instant
Fire in my tongue
Bullets go flying
From a wicked verbal gun
Guilt sets in
With every unkind word I use
The damage that is done
I know I never can undo
Every minute that passes
I try to patiently wait
Hoping the doctors fix the problem
That the solution won’t come too late
In my heart the pain is relentless
For this is just not who I am
I’ve never been an unkind soul
And I really do give a damn
By: T.J. Christoff ©
10/27/2025
1038 hrs.
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I'll Stop Writing...
One day I’ll stop writing
Just as suddenly as I began
One day I’ll stop writing
No more words will escape my pen
One day I’ll stop writing
All thought will cease to form
One day I’ll stop writing
It will seem I’d never been born
One day I’ll stop writing
Yet the winds will continue to blow
One day I’ll stop writing
Though my senses may never know
One day I’ll stop writing
Of the feelings I hold inside
One day I’ll stop writing
Of my dreams that lived and died
One day I’ll stop writing
Of both the joy and pain in me
One day I’ll stop writing
In the hope that others might see
One day I’ll stop writing
Of the love I’ve felt so deep
One day I’ll stop writing
Then perhaps I’ll finally know sleep
By: T.J. Christoff ©
10/27/2025
0539 hrs.
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Thoughts in Knots…
Thoughts in knots
They’re calling the shots
Feelings hard to hide
Like riding a carnival ride
Thoughts in knots
Always talking to me
Pointing out things
I don’t want to see
Thoughts in knots
Anger and disgust
Really sets in deep
Learning who I can and cannot trust
Thoughts in knots
A torment of old
Wanting to know the truth
Yet dreading to be told
Thoughts in knots
It comes in waves
Oh, how I’ve learned
To abhor these days
Thoughts in knots
Why’d you have to begin
What must I do
To bring about your end
By: T.J. Christoff ©
10/26/2025
1343 hrs.
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Life’s a Wonderland…
Life’s a wonderland
An amazing mystery
For each our own to uniquely see
Life’s a wonderland
Full of joyful moments and sad
Plenty of lessons to be experienced and had
Life’s a wonderland
Miracles occurring every day
Never knowing when they’ll come our way
Life’s a wonderland
In fact I wonder a lot
How I can be both grateful for what I have, and for what I have not
Life’s a wonderland
There’s beauty all around
Even in heartache beauty can be found
Life’s a wonderland
Desperate times don’t always call for desperate measures
We all value different treasures
Life’s a wonderland
Struggles come and go
That’s how our souls learn and grow
Life’s a wonderland
Don’t be afraid to wonder
Just don’t give up, don’t ever surrender
By: T.J. Christoff ©
10/26/2025
1143 hrs.
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I’m Having Flashbacks…
I’m having flashbacks
Flashbacks of a different me
A me in a time only I can see
Through my tears I hear myself
The screams ring out in vain
Unable to extinguish my emotional pain
Darkness in the light of day
I just want to hide away
Put an end to the voices of the past
The damage to my heart
Will it ever mend
Before my time comes to an end
My strength is my weakness
It keeps me going
Adding to my suffering without knowing
How quickly emptiness now fills my cup
Repeating words and images that beat me up
Why can’t I just walk away and give up
By: T.J. Christoff ©
10/24/2025
1545 hrs.
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Feeling Emotional...
Feeling emotional
Tears at the flood gate
Keep pushing them back
Not sure how long they’ll wait
Feeling emotional
More and more every day
Losing sight of myself
What I’d known was my way
Feeling emotional
Day in and day out
Mindful of my tone
Trying hard not to shout
Feeling emotional
Over the tiniest of things
Or maybe they’re not
But sometimes that’s what it seems
Feeling emotional
Am I just losing touch
With life and reality
Or do I just love them too much
Feeling emotional
Wanting to quit
In this world at this time
I don’t feel like I fit
Feeling emotional
Tears start to drop
One by one
No sign that they’ll stop
Feeling emotional
What lessons will I learn
As the emotions inside me
Continue to burn
By: T.J. Christoff ©
10/24/2025
1258 hrs.
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