Author of My Soul: Vol. 2 (2024 - 2025)
DEDICATED:
I began writing the dedication for this volume of Author of My Soul once I realized I was about two-thirds of the way finished writing the book. As I looked back over the poems that had already made up the bulk of this volume, I realized that once again, it was You who had inspired virtually all of my writing. I realized that it had been You, who had once again, time and time again, stirred thoughts and emotions within me at a level that would ultimately produce desire, creativity, thoughtful reflection, and so much more.
Whether it is from the words you speak, your quiet mystique in your moments of silence, your simply undeniable beauty, both physical and spiritual, the way the energy of your soul gently touches and interacts with mine, or a combination of all of these things is unclear to me. However, what is clear to me is that you move me deeply, at times and in ways without your knowing. And I am eternally grateful for the inspiration you bring into my life. And with your permission, it is my desire to continue to bring to life through words of poetry, that which you inspire in me, for as long as I am able.
Most humbly, again and always with gratitude, I thank you!
Author of My Soul: Vol. 2 (2024 - 2025)
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5/12/2025
This is the second volume in the second collection of original poems penned by author, T.J. Christoff. As noted in the description of T.J.'s first volume of Author of My Soul: A Collection of Original Poetry, T.J. sees herself as simply the conduit by which poems flow through. T.J. feels grateful to be able to share these works of poetry with others who may appreciate their meaning and the emotional stirrings they may evoke. When receiving the words she writes, T.J. may find a poem presents itself completely within a matter of moments, or with only a few words appearing initially as a quick thought, only to reveal itself to completion more slowly over time. There is no limit on what T.J. may write about, as again, she writes what she receives. However, most of the poems found in T.J.'s collections are easily understood. They are centered on real-life experiences with relatable, emotion-filled concepts that will surely tug at the tightest of heartstrings.
In addition to the Author of My Soul series, T.J Christoff has previously authored the following books: Suicide: One Person's Journey to Making the Choice; My Patchwork Heart: A Collection of Original Poetry (4-volume series and a complete collection); and, 366 Days to Mindfulness and Awakening (2-volume series).
You are...
You are calculating
I have every reason to believe
You always know what you're saying
Though without intent to deceive
You are intelligent
Like a player of chess
You seem to plan your next move
Some three or four moves ahead
You are decisive
I see it in your eyes
In your rare moments of stammer
I sense you feel caught by surprise
You are mysterious
Never failing to intrigue
Weaving together your thoughts
There's so much you're able to conceive
You are ravishing
Outside and in
Whenever I look at you
There's a quieting of my mind's din
You are inviting
A warm calmness you possess
Just thinking of you
Enables my soul to rest
By: T. J. Christoff ©
For: You
10/6/2024
2340hrs.
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https://www.carolynanderson.com/blog/151118/the-art-and-science-of-sunsets
I've Fallen Completely in Love...
I think I'm just going to say it
Let the chips fall where they may
I think I'm just going to say the words
I'm going to put them out there today
I think I'm just going to express my feelings
No more holding them deep inside
I think I'm going to let them out
No longer lock them in my heart to reside
I think I'm going to say the words
That I've waited so long to say
I think I'm tired of holding them in
Yes, I think today is the day
I think you deserve to know the truth
You deserve to know what I feel
I think it's important you finally know
I want to always keep what's between us, real
I think you may already have guessed this
But guessing you should not have to do
When it comes to understanding the feelings
Another soul possesses for you
I think you may already feel it in your heart
It's okay if you don't feel the same for me too
But I think it's time you should know
I've fallen completely in love, with the soul that is you
By: T. J. Christoff ©
For: You
10/19/2024
0929hrs.
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Life's Running on Empty...
Life's running on empty
Days are getting shorter
The desire to exist
A driving force hard to honor
Life's running on empty
Aches and pains I've a plenty
People I trust and truly love
Truth be told there aren't very many
Life's running on empty
Daily grind keeps on a grindin'
Happier days now long past
Fond memories I've trouble findin'
Life's running on empty
Tank of joy's gettin' low
The hands of life's turning faster
Perhaps it's nigh my time to go
Life's running on empty
What time will be mine
Whilst it's long since been written
Henceforth it shall not be denied
Life's running on empty
How many gallons have I to go
Will I coast across the finish line
Or floor it all the way home?
Life's running on empty
It happens to us all
We've no choice but to answer
When we get that final call
By: T. J. Christoff ©
For: Me
12/14/2024
2051hrs.
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https://www.acolorfulme.com/2021/01/23/running-on-empty/
I Wear My Heart Upon My Sleeve…
I wear my heart
Upon my sleeve
With every poem that I pen
I wear my heart
Upon my sleeve
Feeling emotions that have no end
I wear my heart
Upon my sleeve
Expressing feelings both bad and good
I wear my heart
Upon my sleeve
Wouldn’t change it if I could
I wear my heart
Upon my sleeve
With every story that I tell
I wear my heart
Upon my sleeve
I know them all too well
I wear my heart
Upon my sleeve
Giving a glimpse inside of me
I wear my heart
Upon my sleeve
Sometimes I wonder what you see
I wear my heart
Upon my sleeve
Sharing the vulnerable parts with you
I wear my heart
Upon my sleeve
Not knowing what you might do
I wear my heart
Upon my sleeve
With courage and strength of spirit
I wear my heart
Upon my sleeve
I have not will to fear it
I wear my heart
Upon my sleeve
Been doing it most my life
I wear my heart
Upon my sleeve
Giving voice to pain and strife
I wear my heart
Upon my sleeve
A deeply sacred part of me
I wear my heart
Upon my sleeve
Perhaps someday I'll set it free
By: T.J. Christoff ©
12/31/2024
1703hrs.
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https://www.brainyquote.com/quotes/princess_diana_127199
My Achilles’ Heel…
My Achilles’ heel
I didn’t know was real
Or how I would one day feel
My Achilles’ heel
A bittersweet awareness
I fight for strength through weakness
My Achilles’ heel
Hidden from the start
Emotions reside deep within my heart
My Achilles’ heel
Though no ill will do you bode
‘tis my feelings for you I struggle to withhold
My Achilles’ heel
Sweet thoughts of you I embrace
While working to display sagaciousness of face
My Achilles’ heel
So oft’ I long to share with you
How deep my fondness for you runs true
My Achilles’ heel
I contemplate many of your words
While mine to you aloud remain unheard
My Achilles’ heel
I think of you as big hand turns
With so much about you I desire to learn
By: T.J. Christoff ©
For: You
1/1/2025
1522hrs
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Wearing a Fanny Pack of Doom…
I accept the pain
Though I choose not to suffer
In this life that I’m living
And all it’s had to offer
I take it all in
The hurt, anger, and angst
Holding my head high
Mindful of those I’m fighting against
Like a fanny pack of doom
Worn tight about my waist
Filled with the weight of my troubles
Longing for acceptance and grace
Despite all the struggles
All the loneliness I've faced
Like an armor-covered marshmallow
In this world I have a place
There’s a reason for me
Just as there is one for you
We all have our purpose
Things we came here to do
No one said it would be easy
Walking the path to my tomb
Or that it might include one day
Wearing a fanny pack of doom
But I will take every step
Embracing the journey I’m on
It is my destiny
Therefore, it cannot be wrong
I will learn every lesson
I’ve come here to learn
And at the end with much joy
That fanny pack will burn!
By: T.J. Christoff ©
Inspired By: You
1/5/2024
1055hrs.
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https://www.deviantart.com/yummiestseven65/art/Hiro-and-Baymax-Armor-up-509325314
I’ve Finally Decided…
I’d finally decided
I didn’t want to come back
Didn’t want to live another life
I’d finally decided
I’d had all I could take
Of feeling pain, sorrow, and strife
I’d finally decided
I didn’t want to come back
To a world of mayhem and hate
I’d finally decided
I was done making that trip
There’d be no more carrying ‘round of earthly weight
I’d finally decided
I didn’t want to come back
Not after seeing the things I’d seen
I’d finally decided
I’d experienced enough
Of humans being intentionally hurtful and mean
But I’ve since decided
I’ll keep coming back
I want to start my life anew
I’ve finally decided
I’ve a beautiful reason to come back
If only so I can know you
By: T.J. Christoff ©
For: You
1/7/2024
2147hrs.
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Sitting at Heaven's Bus Stop…
What happened to you
Where have you been
We had planned it all out
Sitting at Heaven's Bus Stop back then
Don't you recall
It's all so clear to me
The plans we had made
What we'd do once we'd arrived here, you see
I'd get here first
You'd follow close behind
We'd each explore different places
Living separate lives for a short time
Then soon we'd reunite
There'd be a familiar look in our eyes
An unspoken knowing
And with joy we'd both realize
The plan had unfolded perfectly
It would be time to carry on
We would explore this world together
Embracing both sorrows and fun
But it seems you were delayed
Your trip put on hold
You're now a young, beautiful, coupled soul
While I remain alone here, and old
The mixture of emotions
I now feel are long overdue
They tug hard at my heartstrings
For I'm still so in love with you
I feel sadness and joy
Loss, love, and gratitude
And in my soul I feel an emptiness
That seems can only be filled by knowing you
By: T.J. Christoff ©
For: You
1/11/2024
0744hrs.
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Our Connection is Ethereal…
As I awake to start my day anew
I find my first thoughts are always of you
Slowly I reach and feel for you too
As I find myself lost in wishful thinking
The desire I have is to hold you close
Express how it's you that I love the most
To exchange tokens of love in daily dose
I long to feel your body gently touching mine
By now I'm certain you know how I feel
The desires I hold for you are real
They are not imaginal thoughts I steal
I brought them with me from the astral plane
I close my eyes as darkness settles back in
There in my mind I envision you once again
The sweet dimples of your face, and softness of skin
I inhale as I imagine the allure of your aroma
I long to gaze deeply into your dark eyes
Kissing you passionately for the first time by surprise
If only so you too might come to realize
Our connection is ethereal
To make love with you in physical form
Showing you how deeply you are both loved and adored
This is among the many things my soul longs for
As it awaits patiently to reunite with yours
By: T.J. Christoff ©
For: You
1/18/2024
0903hrs.
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Thy Will Be Done...
If only I were an ostrich
I could bury my head in the sand
Never again would I have to think about
The atrocities throughout these lands
If only I had not eyes to see
The devastation that exists all around me
Never again would I witness the burning of trees
Perhaps then the anguish within my heart would leave
If only I had not ears to hear
The vile words spoken out of hate and fear
Never again would I shudder nor draw my own sneer
I would have abundant reason to laugh and smile
If only I were able to unknow what I know
Release some of the disgust that seems hard to let go
Never again judge another but with love continue to sow
Maybe then I could feel hope on the horizon
If only I knew what was expected of me
Beyond the obvious, “Be the best human you can be!”
Never again would I fret feeling there’s some war to be won
I would simply sigh and whisper, “Thy will be done”
By: T. J. Christoff ©
1/25/2025
1000 hrs.
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I Will Not Lose My Mind…
I don’t know when it happened
I’m not sure what I can do
But the world that I once lived in
No longer looks the way it used to
Some would say that’s a good thing
There are those that wanted this change
Yet as I observe all that’s unfolding
It feels so very deranged
People losing their jobs
For doing what they were hired to do
Criminals being pardoned
After assaulting the fabric of truth
Civil rights being violated
More and more every day
Humans gathered like animals
All dignity stripped away
Those of wealth and privilege
Their greed their driving force
They care not about humanity
For it is riches they value the most
As for me I’ll keep the faith
No, I will not lose my mind
As I search my soul for the lessons
I’ll hold out hope for all mankind
By: T. J. Christoff ©
2/1/2025
1930 hrs.
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https://www.kalerkantho.com/online/miscellaneous/2016/12/30/446994
I'm Glad…
I’m glad I got to know you
If only for a while
I’m glad I got to hear your voice
I’m glad I got to know your smile
I’m glad I got to look into
Your eyes of darkest brown
I’m glad I got to laugh with you
And share moments without sound
I’m glad I got to learn from you
Lessons both big and small
I treasure each experience
In my heart I hold them all
I’m glad for every single word
I’ve ever heard you speak
The way you pose your questions
How you’re able to get me to think
I’m glad for every moment
In this lifetime that I’ve known you
But if I had it to do all over again
This is what differently, I would do
I’d find you much, much sooner
I would not allow delay
For there’s many things I’d want to do with you
Making lots of time for play
We would always tell the truth
Even when telling the truth might hurt
Talking through our differences
Learning what does and does not work
We’d share the joys of life
There’d be some sadness too
We’d love and support each other
Together there’s nothing we couldn’t get through
But that is not how it went this time
It seems that wasn’t meant to be
There’s so much we may never share
So much of each other we may never see
But I’m glad I got to know you
If in this lifetime for only a while
I’m glad I got to hear your voice
I’m glad I got to know your smile
By: T. J. Christoff ©
For: You
2/4/2025
1328 hrs.
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I Fight to Keep My Peace…
I fight to keep my peace
Such a contradiction that does seem
Screw-faced as I sit aghast
Confused by what it all means
I fight to keep my peace
As I watch sanity slip away
I used to notice it only once in a while
Now I witness it multiple times each day
I fight to keep my peace
Reminding myself to relax and breathe
Just to find I’m quickly reminded
Of that which is hard to conceive
I fight to keep my peace
To remain a positive force
Staying focused on my purpose here
My soul reminds me to stay the course
I fight to keep my peace
I wonder what the lessons could be
Knowing they’re meant for everyone
They weren’t just chosen for me
I fight to keep my peace
Understanding this is part of my lot
I won’t fret about the future
For right now is all I’ve got
By: T. J. Christoff ©
2/5/2025
1204 hrs.
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https://www.flyingfreenow.com/a-lesson-in-boundaries-when-someones-gate-shuts-in-your-face/
I See You; I See You There…
I see you; I see you there
The heavy weight
That you bear
I see the sadness
That fills your eyes
I hear the agony of your cries
I see you; I see you there
The look of emptiness
That you wear
As you fear being, and are displaced
Believing there is no one to care
Know that I feel your despair
I see you; I see you there
Among this human race
Seemingly being given no grace
Worried and scared
Broken and blue
Not knowing what to do
I see you; I see you there
Wanting to hold out hope
Yet wondering should you dare
Know that you have been seen
You are not on your own
You do not stand alone
Know that I see you
I see you there
I see you!
By: T. J. Christoff ©
2/5/2025
1854 hrs.
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How Could I Not…
How could I not
Think about you
Desire you
How could I not
Long for you
Want you
How could I not
Laugh with you
Enjoy you
How could I not
Cry with you
Embrace you
How could I not
Dream of you
Trust you
How could I not
Connect with you
Feel you
How could I not
Muse about you
Adore you
How could I not
Look at you
See you
How could I not
Be with you
Miss you
How could I not
Love you
Why wouldn’t I want to?
By: T.J. Christoff ©
For: You
2/14/2025
1049 hrs.
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When Their Time Runs Short...
It’s never easy
When their time runs short
The memories flood my mind
It’s never easy
When their time runs short
Wondering if I could have been more kind
It’s never easy
When their time runs short
Hoping I treated them well
It’s never easy
When their time runs short
Knowing their sight has begun to fail
It’s never easy
When their time runs short
Wishing together we could have more
It’s never easy
When their time runs short
It passes much faster than ever before
It’s never easy
When their time runs short
I dread feeling bereft
It’s never easy
When their time runs short
Wishing there were more time left
It’s never easy
When their time runs short
As I feel the heartache start
It’s never easy
When their time runs short
Knowing soon they’ll have to part
By: T.J. Christoff ©
For: Travesura “Trave” Mae
2/15/2025
1838 hrs.
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Personal Collection
I Imagine Your Dreams…
I picture you sometimes
Resting so sweetly
Breathing ever so softly
I imagine your dreams
Children are playing
Joyful laughter rings out
There's a large blanket
Cucumber sandwiches awaiting
Snickers bars a few
Fire ants are crawling
But only three
Or less, maybe two
I spy acorns
Hats on tight
Your blanket they've found
The sun is shining
Clouds are out
Yet you find rainbows
What's that I see
Could it be
A dill for me?!
I see the dogs
They're running free
Love fills these scenes
I imagine your dreams
Your soulful beauty
As I drift asleep
By: T.J. Christoff ©
For: You
2/20/2025
0617 hrs.
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https://stock.adobe.com/search?k=picnic+blanket+grass&asset_id=964826303
I Want to Say the Words Out Loud...
I'm so in love with you
I want you
I want to tell you...
I want to say the words out loud
I care so deeply for you
I desire you
I want to hold you
I want to say the words out loud
My thoughts are often of you
I miss you
I want to see you
I want to say the words out loud
I want to hold YOUR hands
To feel you
I long to touch you
I want to say the words out loud
I want to kiss you often
Taste your lips
I have fantasized about you
I want to say the words out loud
I want to know your dreams
Travel them too
I often dream of you
I want to say the words out loud
I want to be with you
Explore with you
Share momentous times with you
I want to say the words out loud
By: T.J. Christoff ©
For: You
2/21/2025
0833 hrs.
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You Are Inspiring...
You inspire me
You move me
Without your knowing
I feel you
I sense you
Without my trying
I think of you
Words spring forth
I keep writing
There's no stopping
No holding back
There's no denying
Sometimes there's laughter
Sometimes there's reflection
Sometimes there's crying
Words of hope
Scenes from dreams
But never lying
You inspire truth
Joy and laughter
Want for loving
You move me
Without your knowing
You are inspiring
By: T.J. Christoff ©
For: You
2/21/2025
1656 hrs.
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That Yellow Floaty...
There is a bright, yellow floaty
In the middle of the sea
Of which I lay calmly upon
There's plenty of room there for me
The sea's darkest black
She's lost her sweet blue hue
With mighty waves to propel us about
Through crashing waves, I hear something new
At first a single voice
Now suddenly there are two
As I look around there are bodies abound
With screaming voices quite a few
Flailing arms cast overhead
They're human bobbers full of dread
They seek relief from chaos sown
With flailing arms, they create their own
Upon noticing my floaty
They try to swim up fast
But I choose to remain calm
As I watch them flail right past
They were much too busy
Being consumed by rampant thoughts
Of the worry and the chaos
That has gotten them so lost
But I will keep on watching
And with time as they tire a bit
Me and my bright yellow floaty
Will make a safe place where they can sit
I'll help them climb on up
Being sure to leave sharks behind
Showing each as they come aboard
True love and how to be kind
And there will be a special place
Reserved on my floaty for you
As you are the kindest soul I know
And I trust you'll get through this, too!
By: T.J. Christoff ©
For: You
2/26/2025
0348 hrs.
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View of a Bluebird's Eye...
There has been a noticeable shift
Head hurts, neck too
I'm processing my process
Wearing it, just the way I always do
Joyful laughter wanes in force
Gentler thoughts are waxing strong
Lengthy, silent monologue begins
Questioning "what" if anything I got wrong
Words long since spoken
Be they wrong or right
Firing squad of liquid bullets
Zeroed in on many pillows tonight
I had good intentions
There were ethics to consider and more
I contemplate the results again
While discerning the process as before
What is to be done
When nothing seems to remain
Hold tight to the lessons
For within each will hold the gains
On difficult days like these
You'll find I've taken to the sky
Where everything seems much clearer
As witnessed from the view of a Bluebird's eye
By: T.J. Christoff ©
For: All who have ever felt their efforts fall short.
2/28/2025
0302 hrs.
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Personal Collection
I'd Walk Through Fire for You...
Every time I see you
Each time I hear your sultry voice
I’m grateful that I changed my mind
Grateful I made a different choice
Every time I laugh with you
Or we have a serious chat
I don’t have to look for my heart
Because attached to yours, is where mine’s at
Our humor is playfully compatible
In a very fulfilling way
Oh, what I wouldn’t give
To be able to laugh with you, each and every day
I’ve caught some Freudian slips
Some unintentional things you’ve shared
Yet I can’t help but wonder
If those words were actually chosen with care
It’s hard for me to believe
For a while I’d planned not to return
I’d felt my soul had seen enough
That it had learned all it needed to learn
But I knew I’d keep coming back
That there was nothing I wouldn’t do
The moment that I realized
I’d walk through fire for you!
By: T.J. Christoff ©
For: You
2/28/25
1922 hrs.
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How Long Must I Wait?
I feel like I get you
And like you get me
We see things about each other
That others can’t see
You stay on my mind
You dance in my heart
I feel your presence
Even though we’re apart
I sense your gentleness
Yet I’ve never known your touch
Though I’ve imagined it often
And longed for it much
Your sensitive nature
Such an endearing trait
It draws me in
How long must I wait
I ache at times
Wanting to get the words out
Instead of penning them down
I just want to shout!
To be able to tell you
And knowing that you want to hear
My words as they’re spoken
“I love you, my dear”
By: T.J. Christoff ©
For: You
3/2/2025
2318 hrs.
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Mom! Dad!
You know, Dad
It’s easy to get stuck
On things that leave you feeling sad
So, I wanted to let you know
I forgive you; I love you
And I know things weren’t always bad
Hey there, Mom!
Just wanted to include you too
I believe you had strength you never knew
Mom, the lessons you taught
Were often painful for me
But I’ve learned that the value in lessons are never free
Mom! Dad!
Did you know there was a time
When I hated you both?
So tell me why now
Upon my tears
Do I feel myself choke?
Dad, you left several years ago
The way you would pass
I could not have possibly known
Hey Mom! I haven’t forgotten you!
How fast time could fly after your demise
Was something I too could never have realized
I miss you both
I hold love for you too
And I know we will meet again
But until we do
In the end I want to thank you
For having let my life begin
By: T.J. Christoff ©
For: Mom and Dad
3/4/2025
0030 hrs.
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Private Collection
Don’t Be Afraid to Find Your Funny…
What do you find funny
What brings you laughter
What fills your heart with joy
What moves you to laugh out loud
Even if no one else does
Where do you find your funny
What puts a giggle in your box
A pep in your step
Has you wanting to leap, instead of walk
What gets you laughing so hard
A chuckle turns into a snort
Where do you find your funny
What puts a smile on your face
Have you grown your laugh lines yet
What do you find funny
What cracks you up so much
Bringing joyful tears to your eyes
Yet you just can’t seem to quit laughing
What gets you laughing so hard
You find it difficult to breathe
And your sides hurt a bit
Life can be challenging
A serious mess
So don’t be afraid to find your funny
By: T.J. Christoff ©
3/5/3035
1302 hrs.
Sometimes...Life's Just Crazy Like That…
Sometimes
People will underestimate your worth
They’ll take advantage of you, too
Life’s just crazy like that
Sometimes
You’ll try your best to win the prize
Just to find you’ve fallen short
Life’s just crazy like that
Sometimes
There will be aches and pains and emotional hurt
Remedies that initially make them feel worse
Life’s just crazy like that
Sometimes
You’ll choose to trust another
Only to find that trust has been betrayed
Life’s just crazy like that
Sometimes
You’ll give your heart to another
Only to have it trampled on and broken
Life’s just crazy like that
Sometimes
You may never want to trust again
You may want to hide your heart forever
Life’s just crazy like that
But sometimes
Good fortune and blessings will be on your side
You’ll finally win the prize
Life’s just crazy like that
Sometimes
Joy will finally fill you up again
You will know happiness in abundance
Life’s just crazy like that
Sometimes
You will find your heart will begin to trust again
Your soul will recognize when the time is truly right
And life’s just crazy like that, too
By: T.J. Christoff ©
3/7/2025
1550 hrs.
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I Want to Feel You Often…
I feel you often
It happened the other morning as I was driving
The feeling presented as a warm, persistent knowing
I’ve felt you many other times as well
The feelings show up when least expected
Yet I’ve no doubt they’re an extension of your soul, touching mine
They arrive at times like gentle, unexpected whispers
A longed-for breath of fresh air
Stimulating and awakening my senses
At other times
They are almost overwhelming
Breathtakingly intense
I feel you often
And I am intentional, with my energy in return
Often, I send positive, loving, and healing energy back to you
Sometimes
I think I can hear your thoughts
As the gentleness of your voice alights upon a breeze
I talk aloud occasionally
Longing to share certain thoughts with you
I desire to share love, affection, and joy with you always
I feel you often
Your energy is beautifully radiant
Your soul is fueled by passion
Thoughts of you
Are never far from me
And I want to feel you often
By: T.J. Christoff ©
For: You
3/8/2025
0156 hrs.
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The Seeds of Love Our Souls Have Sown…
I can feel your struggles
I have my struggles too
Sorting out the "wrongs" from "rights"
From what our souls came here to do
I can feel our struggles
The pulling at our hearts
I've watched the fight grow harder
From virtually the very start
I can plainly see our struggles
Oft times our composures we try to maintain
With hope in my heart in the end
We'll find our fight to resist was in vain
I can feel our struggles
Wondering how it all might go
Realizing there's so very much
Our human selves simply don't know
I can feel your struggles
Even when you are not near
I sense them with my soul
I'm keenly aware of your fear
I can feel your struggles
To embrace what is yet unknown
Allowing the seeds to blossom
The seeds of love our souls have sown
By: T.J. Christoff ©
3/12/2025
0943 hrs.
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I Am in Love with You...
I am in love with you
There’s no use pretending
I am in love with you
It’s love without ending
I am in love with you
Your soul I would not forget
I’ve loved you many lifetimes
My love holds no regret
I am in love with you
If only I could count the ways
To express how deeply I love you
Would take me many lifetimes of days
I am in love with you
And all that you are
I feel my love for you
In the joy of watching a shooting star
I am in love with you
And the sound of your laughter
And I love the sigh that you breathe
Immediately thereafter
I am in love with you
I’m not sure I can keep it to myself much longer
I am in love with you
And I only see that growing stronger
By: T.J. Christoff ©
For: You
3/17/2025
1026 hrs.
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Dancing with My Soul…
I drift asleep with visions of you
Vivid in my mind lay stow
They caress my heart with gentleness
While off dancing with my soul they go
Throughout my slumber from dusk ‘til dawn
Loving and laughing as they carry on
Enjoying each moment like children at play
They are dancing with my soul that way
Hours pass yet time stands still
The depth of pleasure intense and surreal
Creating possibilities to be known in time
It’s joy in dancing with my soul they find
How long should this my slumber take
Before I must fully surrender to wake
Like silhouettes now in suspended air
They’re dancing with my soul with care
Without fail dawn finally breaks
And with it my visions of you it takes
Leaving me to begin my day anew
While left to imagine myself dancing with you
Tonight as I stumble back into bed
With vivid thoughts of you still stow in my head
I’ll look for visions of you to begin
Embracing and dancing with my soul once again
By: T.J. Christoff ©
For: You
3/20/2025
2049 hrs.
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I’m A Little Human…
I’m a little human
Some days I forget it’s true
I go to bed late and wake up early
With big plans for things to do
I’m a little human
In many more ways than just one
What I lack in height I make up for in heart
Life’s too short not to have big fun
I’m a little human
I hold within myself great might
I’ve courage, resilience, and strength of character
I know it’s better to walk away than it is to fight
I’m a little human
But I’m so much more than just that
I’m a loving soul that keeps on expanding
Inside this meat suit is where my soul is at
I’m a little human
But deep inside the soul that’s truly me
If you care to take a look around
You might actually be surprised at what you see
I’m a little human
The experiences of my soul are vast
I take them with me into every new lifetime
For the memories of this human won’t last
I’m a little human
My soul is the light which guides my way
Reminding me to remain positive
Through even my toughest of day
I’m a little human
I’m an explorer of many pasts
Encumbered by weight of earthly form
Until off my soul, this form is finally cast
By: T.J. Christoff ©
3/21/2025
2257 hrs.
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Until I Write, I Don’t Know…
Until I write
I don’t know
How the words of a poem
Once penned will flow
Where do they come from
Where have they been
From first word until last
Discovering emotion without end
Until I write
I don’t know
What hidden secrets will lay bare
The choice of my pen to share
I read and reread
Sometimes caught by surprise
My own sentiment
Perhaps unexpectedly realized
Until I write
I don’t know
Which direction my thoughts
May choose to go
Lifting me up
Or bringing me down
Expressing joyful laughter
Or ending in tears without sound
Until I write
I don’t know
The personal stories they will tell
Of my beleaguered attempts to live life well
Will I find hope in the hopeless
Will I choose to travel where others dare not go
Until I write
I don’t know
Will I someday discover
There’s so much more to me
Then even I have ever
Been able to truly see
Buried deep within the depths of my soul
Just longing to be set free
Until I write
I don’t know
By: T.J. Christoff ©
Inspired By: You
3/23/2025
1617 hrs.
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Why am I Suddenly Doubting Me…
Why am I suddenly
Doubting me
What I feel in my soul
The signs that I see
Casting doubt
On all I feel
Those things I’ve sensed
What I know is real
Why am I suddenly
Doubting me
What caused this shift
What could it be
Is it old tapes playing
Within my mind
Telling me I’m not worthy
So don’t waste your time
Why am I suddenly
Doubting me
The worth I might have
To somebody
I know my heart
All the love that it holds
So, why am I suddenly
Doubting me
By: T.J. Christoff ©
3/24/2025
1310 hrs.
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Saving Worms in the Rain…
Sometimes I catch myself daydreaming
Thoughts of you cascade one atop the next
They fall posthaste, yet soft as feathers down
The images and scenes pass quickly
They toy with my senses all at once
Luring me along while holding my attention fast
I smile to myself often, yet I sigh
As each scene comes and goes without pausing
So too the time passes without my knowing
Occasionally, I am gifted with a longer glimpse
A flashback to conversations past
A peek at what could be, if only…
In my mind, I can hear our bursts of laughter
I can see smiles we have shared freely
The emotional resonance evokes strong feelings deep within me
One scene stands out and brings me great joy
A moment of synchronicity caught between us
Existing almost as if somehow scripted together by our souls
On a very cold day in March
Saving worms in the rain
While laughing, with thoughts of each other on our minds!
By: T.J. Christoff ©
For: You
3/27/2025
1652 hrs.
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https://blog.greenhearted.org/2012/03/earthworms-after-rain-metaphor-for.html
You’re Safe with Me…
You’re safe with me
By now I hope that’s clear
My desire is to show you love
Not to cause doubt or fear
You’re safe with me
And if I were to hold you tight
I’ve no doubt You would feel the reassurance
That all will turn out right
You’re safe with me
And the commitments I bring
I stay true to my word
And all that means
You’re safe with me
When things get tough
I’m not that person
Who will simply give up
You’re safe with me
And so is your heart
That includes every piece
Even the broken and tiniest parts
You’re safe with me
And yes, I have my flaws
But everyone else does too
So I hope that won’t give you much pause
You’re safe with me
And all I have to offer
My love for you is protected
My heart is its coffer
You’re safe with me
I promise you I’m not lying
Our souls are divinely connected
Of that there’s no denying
By: T.J. Christoff ©
For: You
3/27/2025
2310 hrs.
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I Wonder if You Know…
I wonder if you know
All the beauty that you hold
In being who you are
My attraction to your soul
I wonder if you know
All the joy your laughter brings
In those moments when you open up
As we talk about silly things
I wonder if you know
I could get lost in the warmth of your eyes
Often I find I must avert my own
As my love for you I find hard to disguise
I wonder if you know
How I fight to hide the pain
The pain I feel inside my heart
Why I’m unable to utter your name
I wonder if you know
All the things I want to do
To express how deep my feelings run
How much I truly love you
I wonder if you know
The connection our souls share
Because right now the journey they’re on
Sometimes feels like, “Truth or Dare”
By: T. J. Christoff ©
For: You
3/30/2025
1055 hrs.
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I Want To…
I want to hear your laughter
First thing in the morning
I want to feel your touch
First thing in the morning
I want to see your sleepy head
First thing in the morning
I want to touch you as you stretch
First thing in the morning
I want to nestle up close to you
Smelling your sweet scent
I want to taste your kisses
Every chance I get
I want to start each day with you
First thing in the morning
To find myself waking up with you
First thing in the morning
I want to start each day anew
First thing in the morning
Believing I’ll end another day with you
Each and every evening
I want to experience more of life with you
And with those who hold your heart
I imagine all that we could do
If only we hadn’t a fear to start
By: T.J. Christoff ©
For: You
4/2/2025
0746 hrs.
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https://quotefancy.com/quote/933852/Will-Smith-I-want-to-represent-possibilities
Unraveling the Cornstalk Maize…
Unraveling the cornstalk
The cornstalk maize
Could leave the most serious traveler
Scratching their head for days
With wonder in their eyes
With every twist they make
All along their journey
Surprised by each turn the maize takes
A staple for many cultures
Including Aztecs and Mayans too
It’s believed corn originated in Mexico
It seems there’s not much this maize can’t do
So, what would a creation story be
Without stalks of corn placed ‘round to adorn
As a ritual, maize in many cultures is used
To honor death and when new life has been formed
From Spirituality to Religions
To Native American rituals as well
It would seem that this amazing maize
Has advanced itself quite well
Maize honors spirits of ancestors
By using a Hopi tradition of Katsina dance
And if you see corn at a Day of the Dead festival
You can trust it wasn’t put their by chance
While Christianity may use corn
With the Eucharist and Communions too
When it comes to Native Americans
It seems the cornstalk has plenty left to do
The cornstalk represents a connection
Between humans and our planet Earth
Named, “The Mother of Life” by Native Americans
Love is at the center of the cornstalk’s worth
When it comes to spirituality
Those having visions just might see
A single stalk of corn
Standing in the light of you or me
There may be leaves a plenty
Touching our light just barely on the fringe
Reaching up to feel our rays
Like the warmth of sunlight coming in
Within the many leaves lay bare
The site of silk strands form
Provided by The Mother of Life
Feeding each kernel and keeping them warm
If you happen upon a cornstalk
Especially if in a vision in your head
Take it as a sign of good things to come
Trust there is no need for you to dread
By: T.J. Christoff ©
Inspired By: You
4/4/2025
0045 hrs.
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I am Passionate about You…
I have noticed
There reside particular feelings within me
Which only seems to exist
When thoughts of you meander through my mind
I feel joy
I feel sensations of warmth and familiarity
I feel calm and at peace
I feel an intense longing and desire to hold you close
I have noticed
I feel your energy often
And, in those moments I wonder
If you might be feeling my energy as well
I sometimes wonder
If you have experienced similar sensations
When you have found your thoughts
Have made their way back to me
I have noticed
You are the first thought on my mind when I awake
And you are always the last thought on my mind
As I drift off to slumber
I cry sometimes
When I find myself missing you deeply
Feeling uncertain of what remains unknown
Yet determined to remain grateful simply for, “what is”
I have noticed
How much I truly enjoy you
The energy of your beautiful soul touches my own
Stirring my senses beyond my human comprehension
I have wondered
Will I ever find a way to let you know
Will I ever be able to say the words out loud
I am passionate about you!
By: T.J. Christoff ©
Inspired By: You
4/9/2025
1223 hrs.
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The Purpose of My Soul…
I wonder what the purpose is
The purpose of my soul
As it’s traveled throughout lifetimes
Many human forms in tow
I imagine all the experiences
My soul has already known
Often I’m left wondering
How much my soul has grown
I think about the lessons
My human self has faced
Compared to those of my soul
I feel I’m significantly outpaced
I wonder what the purpose is
The purpose of my soul
How quickly does it start to age
How much wisdom can it hold
If the purpose of my soul
Through incarnation is to grow
At what point will it have grown enough
When will it know what it needs to know
Will my soul just keep on returning
Inhabiting new human form
Starting over as a tiny baby
When it wants to be reborn
Yes, I wonder what the purpose is
The purpose of my soul
Does it come here with a plan
Does it have a final goal
By: T. J. Christoff ©
4/10/2025
1139 hrs.
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I’m Never Giving Up My Kid…
I’ll never relinquish
The kid in me
That part of me that laughs
When others fail
To find their funny
I know that mine will last
I’ll never silence
The kid in me
When desiring to have some fun
Life’s too short
To hold myself back
It won’t leave me coming undone
I’m never going
To hide my kid
I laugh out loud each day
I can’t imagine
Withholding joy and excitement
You’re never too old to play
I’ll never deny
The kid in me
The chance to shine its light
Laughing out loud
Finding the silly inside
Make the cloudiest days look bright
By: T.J. Christoff ©
Inspired By: You
4/10/2025
2150 hrs.
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It Ain't My Worry…
It ain’t my worry
Ain’t my concern
How others live their lives
The lessons they came here to learn
It ain’t my worry
I needn’t care
What each moment holds
I’ll live with joy not with fear
It ain’t my worry
I needn’t regret
I’ll choose to be happy
I will not fret
It ain’t my worry
What others might do
I’ll keep sowing kindness
Letting love shine through
It ain’t my worry
These aches and pains that I feel
They remind me I’m living
They remind me, life’s real
It ain’t my worry
Someday I’ll take my last breath
And life will go on without me
Long after my death
By: T.J. Christoff ©
4/11/2025
1939 hrs.
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Damaged Goods…
What would you see
If to look inside of me you could
Would you find anything of value
Or just simply damaged goods
What would you hear
If I spoke only from my heart
Do you think you’d truly listen
Or from my presence choose to part
What would you think
If my passion I always let show
Do you think you’d suddenly wish
I was someone you did not know
How would you feel
If you could somehow know my touch
Would you embrace me with your open arms
Or recoil in great disgust
If I were somehow everything
You’d hoped your someone special to be
With just a few exceptions
What would not suit you, about me
What would be the first thing to go
Then the second, third, and fourth
Tell me, won’t you be so kind
How would you count my worth
What do you think there would be
If you took a good look inside
Would the goods all be damaged
Would there be things I’d tried to hide
Oh won’t you please tell me what you’d see
If looking inside of me you could
Would you find anything of great value
Or just simply damaged goods
By: T.J. Christoff ©
For: You
4/11/2025
2249 hrs.
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Dare to Live Life on Purpose…
Dare to live life on purpose
Take each moment one at a time
Give up the urge to use damaging words
Instead, choose always to be kind
Dare to live life on purpose
Be grateful for what you’ve got
After all you can’t take it with you
So, choose to enjoy it, like it or not
Dare to live life on purpose
Don’t think the tough times are all you have
When faced with disappointments
Choose to look at them and laugh
Dare to live life on purpose
Don’t look the other way
When you see someone without a smile
Choose to give one of yours away
Dare to live life on purpose
Embracing the lessons current and past
While often painful in the moment
Choose to trust that pain won’t last
Dare to live life on purpose
Understanding freedom isn’t free
Don’t wait for others to set positive examples
Choose to be the example you wish to see
By: T.J. Christoff ©
4/13/2025
1229 hrs.
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I Feel it in the Air Tonight…
I feel it in the air tonight
The turbulence distinct
The fall from human arrogance
Could soon find all extinct
I see it on their faces
It’s most everywhere I look
It’s in the eyes of young and old
Of those who once could not be shook
I dare not turn the T.V. on
Lest I get a lethal dose
Where before I could find moments of joy
Now every day is more morose
Each devastation comes so fast
There’s scarcely time to take it in
The negative news never stops
It feels there’s only one way that it can end
If there weren’t some sort of breaking story
Carnage for all to view
There’d be no need for cable news
Not much left for them to do
It seems the more absurd things get
The more absurdity they show
One then begets the other, alas
But there’s something we all should know
This can’t go on “forever”
As “forever” too shall end
And eventually what we all will see
This shattered world was ours to mend
So, take this opportunity
And hold your blessings dear
Let’s embrace what makes us all so different
Rather than destroying ourselves out of fear
By: T.J. Christoff ©
For: The World
4/13/2025
2046 hrs.
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Show Me Who Youe Are…
Show me who you are
By the actions that you take
Show me who you are
With every move you make
Show me who you are inside
The deepest parts of you
Show me who you are
In everything you do
Show me who you are
On your best and worst of days
Show me who you are
When life turns all sideways
Show me who you are
When sad tears begin to fall
Show me all your courage
As you bravely own them all
Show me who you are
As you playfully unveil your kid
Show me the child inside of you
As you choose not to keep it hid
Show me who you are inside
Deep within your soul
Show me everything you can
I want to see it all
By: T.J. Christoff ©
For: You
4/14/2025
1002 hrs.
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Let Me Hear Your Voice…
Let me hear your voice
Please do not keep it hidden
The feelings of your heart
Should be expressed and not forbidden
Let me hear your voice
What you truly feel inside
Your feelings should be heard
Not buried in fear to reside
Let me hear your voice
Everything you have to say
Even if it pains me
I want to hear it anyway
Let me hear your voice
The good, the bad and all
Your voice should lift you up
Not keep you feeling small
Let me hear your voice
Let me hear you speak from your soul
The things that matter most to you
That’s what I want to know
Let me hear your voice
I’ll hang onto every word
Listening closely as you speak
I want you to feel heard
By: T.J. Christoff ©
For: You
4/15/2025
1905 hrs.
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It Hurts My Heart…
It hurts my heart
Every time I see them
Laying there on the roadway
It never gets any easier
Time after time
Innocence lost
It hurts my heart
When I imagine
The last moments of their lives
I wonder to myself
Did they see it coming
Did they suffer long or at all
It hurts my heart
As I contemplate
If they left others behind
I think to myself
How could this have happened
Could it have been avoided
It hurts my heart
With everyone I see
I feel I lose a piece of me
Though the beating of their hearts has stopped
It is their essence which remains
Leaving a lasting imprint upon my soul
By: T.J. Christoff ©
4//22/2025
1624 hrs.
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Why did I Agree…
Why did I agree
All those years ago
To wait so long to find you
This is something I still don’t know
Why did I agree
I’d journey far ahead of you
Living much of life alone
For reasons I’d forgotten that I knew
Why did I agree
To feel all the emotions that I’d feel
Once I’d finally found you
This has all been so surreal
Why did I agree
To feel love for you so deep
Uncertain if you will ever know
Breaks my heart and makes me weep
Why did I agree
It just does not make any sense
I can’t even tell you how I feel
Still my love for you will not relent
Why did I agree
How could I not have known
In this lifetime you would not choose me
It seems I was meant to end up alone
By: T.J. Christoff ©
For: You
4/23/2025
1106 hrs.
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I'll Be Your Bumblebee…
I wasn’t going to come back
Once this lifetime ends
I’d had it all figured out
I wasn’t going to do this ever again
But then reality hit me
Right there deep in my heart
When I realized I couldn’t imagine
An eternity from you apart
So, I’ve decided that I’ll come back
Time and time again
Yes, I’ve decided that I’ll keep coming back
Until this too your journey ends
You’ll find me taking many forms
I’ll be a Bluebird in a tree
A worm on a sidewalk on rainy days
Perhaps you’ll rescue me
Don’t be surprised if you see me
As a butterfly upon a breeze
Whether in colors of black and yellow, or blue
Know it’s you I’ve come to please
Look for me in your yard
I’ll be carrying tiny buckets with me
To pollinate for you the most beautiful flowers
I’ll be your bumblebee
By: T.J. Christoff ©
For: You
4/23/2025
1540 hrs.
Image:
https://www.openaccessgovernment.org/bumble-bees-need-biodiversity/81996/
Denying the Reaper…
I’m denying the reaper
The culling keeper
I will not let him get me
I’m not lying
I’m really trying
Dead for now I’d rather not be
I feel it in the air
The scent of death is everywhere
I feel it coming after me
I’ve moments of laughter
Eyes filled with tears thereafter
At times death is all I can see
Who will win
Who will lose
Will the Reaper’s pursuit of me ever end
For so many years
I’ve fought to deny the Reaper
Without truly knowing who let the culling begin
By: T.J. Christoff ©
4/26/2025
0855 hrs.
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The Parts of People…
There are parts of people
There are parts I dislike
There are parts I like
The parts of people I dislike
Their jeering insults
Their scornful glances
The parts of people I like
Their encouraging words
Their kind smiles
The parts of people I dislike
Their cold alienation
Their selfish consumption
The parts of people I like
Their gentle hugs
Their selfless sacrifices
The parts of people I dislike
Their random acts of violence
Their unwillingness to accept diversity
The parts of people I like
Their random acts of kindness
Their ability to overcome adversity
The parts of people I dislike
Their choosing to be deceptive
Their choosing to be manipulative
The parts of people I like
Their choosing to be honest
Their willingness to try negotiation
There are parts of people
There are parts I dislike
There are parts I like
The parts of people I dislike
As I now contemplate
It would seem there are many
The parts of people I like
As I continue to reflect, I realize
There are also many
By: T.J. Christoff ©
4/27/2025
1944 hrs.
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When I'm Hurting the Most…
When I'm hurting the most
That's when I retreat deep within me
Averting my glance intentionally
It's the pain in my soul I don't want you to see
When I'm hurting the most
That's when my voice falls silent
Like a locomotive racing in slow motion
My thoughts appear calm yet are strangely violent
When I'm hurting the most
I am present yet I feel so lost
At times wanting to speak aloud
But instinctively I know I must count the cost
When I'm hurting the most
Sometimes it overwhelms my heart
And I have to remind myself
Why it's not yet my time to part
When I'm hurting the most
I look at life a little differently
Knowing I have a purpose here
But not always certain of what it could be
When I'm hurting the most
I avert my glance intentionally
For if you were to look into my eyes right then
You would be able to see every broken piece of me
By: T.J. Christoff ©
For: You
5/3/2025
1603 hrs.
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It's Amazing…
It’s amazing
How much I’ve changed
Since having rediscovered you
It’s amazing
How aligned we are
With what moves us deeply
It’s amazing
How thoughts of you
Bring me peace, warmth, and laughter
It’s amazing
How without even trying
You radiate such beautiful energy
It’s amazing
How you stir desire and passion
I’d forgotten I’d once possessed
It’s amazing
How without speaking a word
At times we seem able to share our thoughts
It’s amazing
How I find joy
In simply knowing you exist
It’s amazing
How you find joy
In knowing that I exist, too
By: T.J. Christoff ©
For: You
5/4/2025
1957 hrs.
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Loving You from a Distance, endlessly…
I find myself
I’m waiting
I’m wondering
Will you create the necessary change
I find myself
I’m waiting
I’m wondering
Will the communication ever come
I find myself
I’m waiting
I’m wondering
Have you truly recognized me yet
I find myself
I’m waiting
I’m wondering
Sometimes I sense your anxiety and stress
I find myself
I’m waiting
I’m wondering
What exactly are you trying to figure out
I find myself
I’m waiting
I’m wondering
Are you waiting for me to make a more direct move toward you
I find myself
I’m waiting
I’m wondering
Is it fear that holds you back
I find myself
I’m waiting
I’m wondering
Has our connection changed you as much as it has me
I find myself
I’m waiting
I’m wondering
While loving you from a distance, endlessly
By: T.J. Christoff ©
For: You
5/5/2025
0930 hrs.
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Death Road…
I call it “Death Road”
Yet it looks like any other
Until I glance upon the ground
And witness what it has to offer
I drive this road most every day
Dreading what I might find
The remains of innocent creatures
And possible loved ones left behind
With apprehension in my soul
As I make my daily drive
I keep my eyes upon this road
While the pain fills me up inside
I can’t imagine what they’ve done
What crime did they commit
To earn this as their sentence
A Death Road punishment
With no one there to mourn them
As they take their final breath
To let them know they mattered
In life and now in death
So, I will hold them close in spirit
In my heart I’ll keep them near
Knowing now that they are gone
There is nothing left for them to fear
By: T.J. Christoff ©
5/9/2025
1549 hrs.
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I Know Why I'm Here…
I know why I’m here
I’ve come to know my worth
It’s to be a sounding board for others
To help them to feel heard
I know why I’m here
I believe I finally know the plan
I’ve gained perspective of my past
There are things I’ve come to understand
I know why I’m here
I’ve gained insight into me
I’ve realized why I’m here this time
Yes, I’ve begun to clearly see
I know why I’m here
Why my existence has been so tough
It was to teach me value within the lessons
Instilling the courage to never give up
I know why I’m here
I know the purpose of my soul
It’s to bring peace, hope, and love to others
Even to those I do not know
I know why I’m here
Even on those days when I struggle a bit
I know when it comes to my purpose
I couldn’t be a more perfect fit!
By: T.J. Christoff ©
5/9/2025
2202 hrs.
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Collecting Broken Pieces of Me…
Feelings are happening
They’re not hard to find
These intense feelings
Sad memories fill my mind
The pain that I feel
I’m reminded every time
As I’m driving along
The path of a dead animal which crosses mine
In those moments for me
Time seems to stand still
As thoughts return to a deceased chicken
And a dog who’d refused to heel
Though lasting only moments
The image is very clear
The carnage there before me
Vivid and surreal
Every time I feel the suffering
Of the broken and torn apart
Always taking something from me
A piece of my soul and part of my heart
I bury their little bodies
Whenever I possibly can
Then give them each a name
And say a prayer as best I can
I lay them down to rest
Knowing they are not there alone
Pieces of me lay resting now too
As their souls make their way back home
For now, it’s what is best
It’s what I know how to do
Collecting broken pieces of me
Laying them to rest with all of you
By: T.J. Christoff ©
Inspired By: You
5/9/2025
2316 hrs.
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If I Were Being Honest…
If I were being honest
When it comes to loving you
I’d say it’s been the most beautiful challenge
I’ve ever been blessed to do
If I were being honest
My feelings I try to hide
If asked right out if I’m in love with you
I’d find it most difficult not to lie
If I were being honest
When I look into your eyes
I’d tell you how I long for you
My feelings I would not disguise
If I were being honest
About how often I think of you
I’d have to admit the frequency
Has become a pleasure I’ve grown accustomed to
If I were being honest
When I look around to see
You are nowhere to be found
I feel an emptiness deep within me
If I were being honest
I’d experience this countless times again
If it meant I’d always know you
That our story, would know no end
By: T.J. Christoff ©
For: You
5/10/2025
1707 hrs.
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I Heard Your Every Single Word…
I heard your every single word
The things in me you see
How I’m able to accept “what is”
While remaining authentically me
I heard your every single word
The things you did and didn’t say
I feel the meaning wasn’t lost
Why you chose to share with me that day
I heard your every single word
How you let me know you care
When sharing that you think of me
I was caught all unaware
I heard your every single word
About a turtle-dodging motorist
That funny message you’d received
And the sign they didn’t miss
I heard your every single word
About another soul who gave a care
And the turtle-crossing sign they hit
Left found on the roadway laying there
I heard your every single word
Though at that time I hadn’t much to say
I want you to know I heard your every word
And I think of you every single day
By: T.J. Christoff ©
For: You
5/10/2025
1936 hrs.
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